Is being excited all its hyped up to be?

I have a problem. I find it so hard to get excited about things. Perhaps its a way of over compensating in case I get disappointed. Perhaps I've just become too jaded about stuff on earth. Tough.

I'm getting married in October this year. October 14th to be exact. I should be a little more excited about the wedding, planning, being the bride from hell and all. But I'm not! HOw strange. I'm truly looking forward to being married though. Maybe I've planned too many events in my work so the wedding seems like another event for me. Maybe I've seen too many failed marriages to know that its not the wedding that's important but the marriage that is.

I'm looking forward to starting my life with BaChuan. To perhaps even to learn how to cook a proper dish or two. (Not the ironing though, that i'll never learn to like). I'm looking forward to trying to be a good wife (hahah, yes, i'm serious!)having my own home, a husband (a husband!) to go home to...

But I'm not excited cos excitement is overrated.